Tuesday, December 10, 2013


Cottage cheese + pomagranates

Homemade GF banana bread w/chocolate chips. yum

Few cookies n cream kisses

spaghetti squash w/quinoa tomato sauce
Bite of Ghandi's roti

apple w/PB

More banana bread. Deadly, shouldn't have brought a lot.

Dinner? Don't know.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Time is fying

I can't believe it's almost mid November already. What the hell. Friday I went to an Italian resto with my good pal MA. We had olives, bread, pizza, wine, dessert and more wine. Now I know where all my money goes. Entertainment + wine. Better than drugs, no? Better than staying home all the time in a depression spiral. I wish I had a wine cellar and I was able to collect wine to fill it. One day..

yesterday I went to CF and practiced my Oly training moves. It's not easy and I can't say I'm loving it. But I'm sticking it out til the 16 workouts are done. I'm not gonna give up until I know what I'm doing.
Also went to a fancy LCBO in "Leaside" and got carded. She looked at me, asked for my ID, I'm like heck yeah! and she was shocked by my age. Go life! Got groceries at Sobeys and went home. I had a nice nap and made a wicked mushroom risotto. Like, you would die. It's from a Jamie Oliver cookbook I got years ago. Fuckin amazing. Lots of great recipes and who doesn't love risotto?! Had it with a charcuterie board and a great bottle of inexpensive vintage red. What fun it is to be an adult!

This is the book, it's great to have on-hand. Many many awesome recipes inside. Cookbooks. GET SOME.

Should I go to hot yoga for once in my life? It looks too windy to run outside. I need to some some sort of physical activity to work off the rich things I consumed.

That's all I got, I'm just really proud that I made risotto. Hey, it's gluten free at least! But there is definitely butter and cheese :) No regrets.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Week Three

I can't say I'm being great on this challenge. I mean, I want to see a diff in my body but at the same time I need consistency in the long run. So being strict for 5 weeks won't help me come Christmas time naameen.

Sleeps haven't been great. Reasons.

2 Eggs poached
coconut butter

1/2 grapefruit
dried bananas

Chicken breast
spinach salad
lemon juice/ evoo

coconut yogurt w/raspberries
not necessary

Monday, September 16, 2013

Week 2: Challenge

So far so good. I've only managed to cheat by having some cassava chips also some regular potato chips on friday. What. I'm still clean on the booze-front though! and THAT is the toughest.

chia pudding w/blueberries/coconut/maple syrup

Yes, I'm not going hardcore this time. Relaxed, healthy approach to "clean eating". Maple syrup is from a tree for fucks sake. Fuck off with that mess. Obv I'm not gonna eat a cup of it, but a drizzle fo shizzle. I'm not dealing with the "quitting sugar withdrawal" this time. THIS time around I'm doing a more realistic, livable approach to eating real foods. Something I can maintain over winter.

shep pie
snack: pistachios

Later, a gross dry peach.

Pre: CF
Banana bread

CF - did not set any PRs. :(

Salmon, sweet potatoes, spinach, bacon.

Went to my first wine class. I was so excited when I got to the building and could smell the wine down the hall. Aww yeah I was in the right place. The lab is set up kinda like a chemistry lab, but with white counters – not black, and a it's all a little more dainty. We each had 3 classes of red wine in waiting for us - not full glasses, like 2 sips each, and our own little sinks. (we had two more glasses with whites in them later) The instructor is a baller in the wine game, he is older with a big moustache and decent sized nose - not a big shnozzz or anything, but decent. it's needed :). He is definitely a "Wine Doctor" and he has published books and written many things about wine. He's traveled and I'm guessing he is a Master Sommelier - clearly a dream come true. Sure! I'd love to go to French/Italian/Argentinian vineyards, get paid and taste things. It was exciting hearing him talk about food pairing, he got really passionate about the foods he was picturing: "I'd make some BBQ pork ribs with this, a reduction with (this wine) and diana sauce, serve it with little roast potatoes.." He was speaking my language. He has a full friggin directory of recipes, tastes and smells in his head. I'm gonna work on building my own mental library f'sho. He spoke about wine production and methods, some I knew from our trip to Bordeaux, but a lot I didn't. I'm so excited to know everything. I've already learnt so much just from the tasting portion - everyone's favourite part. There is a technique, a method, a science to it all. And it's so fun. People who aren't into wine would never know that there is actually an art and science behind it all. I love it. I assumed I'd be amazing at it, and identifiying the smells, but I was like.. "I don't know what I'm smelling. This one smells like Christmas." So I'm learning to identify the different "notes", "aromas" and "bouquets" in wines. You are supposed to guess what part of the world each wine is from. And people were right! WTF I know nothing obviously. Yet. Also I was secretly thinking, "fuck off with your previous wine knowledge". There is a blind test at the end. Excited. I might practice spitting next week though, since I'm not supposed to be drinking. Oh, did I mention our homework is.. wait for it.. TASTING WINE. Ideally what we had in class and practice pairing it with the foods we mentioned. AWESOME. Why didn't I take this instead of Graphic Design? What was I thinking?!! Anyway, I've learned a lot and I'm paying attention. This is a good thing because lots of classes I have problems staying present. Go Jesus Juice!!

So, I drank about one glass of wine total. Not bad. It's just wine, people. It's paleo. :)


"Paleo banana bread" I realize it's dumb but whatever. It was good. Had a big piece.

Leftover chicken/potats.

Other things:
Well Fed Shep Pie

More banana bread. Gah, I'm a neverending pit today foshe.

Rooibos tea.

I wanted to run but felt fallmode lazy. Meh.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

It was the blurst of times

Fine. I'm in fall mode. I want to bake things, make things, cook things, roast things, crochet things, sit on things, drink things and watch things. I want to go to the suburbs on the weekend and smell the fresh air and feel nostalgic feelings. I want to walk into my parents house and smell the roast cooking and maybe sit on the porch with a glass of wine. I love fall, you love fall, we all love fall because it brings back good memories. Well, I hope it brings back good memories for you. It means new beginnings, it means endings, it's a season of change. As much as you all "hated" school, it was an exciting time of year nonetheless. New friends, new classes, new clothes and school gear. All awesome things. I hope you experienced these types of things, and if you haven't, well, I'm sorry.

I love remembering hanging out with my friends September and October nights. We all lived within 5 minutes walk from each other so it only took a phone call to arrange a hangout. Or I'd just hop on my bike and ride over to Stillwater Cres. and see if my peeps were chilling by the green box or outside Christina's house. If they weren't there, I'd check the schools. We'd hang there too. We had a crew, 4 or 5 of us in our grade, and a few that were a year younger. We were an awesome crew of good people. I'll name them off for my own enjoyment:

Darrin would make an appearance on his bike every now and then. High on something. He's married to Christina now and they have 4 kids. Christina had such a crush on that bad ass!
Lisa sometimes
"Pun" (like big pun - he was a big guy)
Kathleen sometimes
Kevin and his stoner older brother
Tyson sometimes

Those were great times. This is around grade 10 I'd say. The crew switched the following year, but that's the natural circle of life.

Damn I wish I had more photos of those times. Christina used to work at the local Harveys, we'd go there late for free things. Julie used to work at Hy & Zels. We won't get into those free things. (*cough* makeup *cough).

We'd get English toffee coffees from Country Style, or french vanillas because EW COFFEE. In the summer or on the weekends we'd hook up when it got dark and rollerblade downtown Brampton to "Gotham" (a car parking garage with many levels) we'd blade up to the top, hang out and blade down the ramps. It was called Gotham cuz apparently when you looked over Brampton from the top it looked like Gotham. No it didn't. Also there was a homeless man who slept in the stairway. We offered him a sandwich once.

I have lots of great autumn memories, I could go on. But I'll save them for future posts. Now it's movie time - another great fall past time.


Sleep was quite nice actually. Since I've had no aclohol at all this week, I didn't have a fucked up sleep at all last night. sure I woke up once and looked for my shirt on the floor beside me but that's it.

leftover meat/squash

Went to CF, squatted, deadlifted and did some ab shizz.

Ate some healthy things in the afternoon and had Portuguese chicken and potatoes for dinner.

Now, Insidious. Why not. Fall mode.

Smoothie post-workout

Portuguese BBQ chicken w/potatoes. Amaze.

Friday, September 13, 2013


It's fall today. Fall mode in full effect - I even have a hipster saggy toque on.

2 protein pancakes. Not explaining.

pistachios / americano

spaghetti squash / meat sauce

same as lunch - I made a plan to eat it, in order to avoid eating anything at the Jays game. I knew I'd get hungry and want Doritos (still did) and/or a hotdog (obv wanted anyway) but of course it would have been a big mistake. I had a decaf coffee instead. It's different being in the clear headed mindset. I saw a lady walk by me while i was waiting and she was drinking a coffee, that made me want a coffee. If I weren't on a challenge I would have definitely been drinking. I woulda sat at a bar nearby and had a cocktail on my own. Don't even care.

I did have a sip of beer though. It was so good! Stadium beer tastes better. It just does. The bubbles are smaller. But the prices are atrocious. 10.50 for a cup of beer. Fuuuuuck yoooooou.

But since I ate so early - 5pm - I was hungry by like 11pm and I had the last of the cauli soup. Note to self: cauliflower soup gives you gas. Maybe it was the onion in it. I dunno I'll have to make it sans onion next time.

That was Friday the 13th - an unlucky one in the sense that work things happened and put a slight wrench in my clear weekend.

Thursday, September 12, 2013


Sleep was not long enough.

omelet w/leftover bbq vegetables


From Fresh n Wild: 1 chicken breast, broccoli/bacon/onion salad. Had light mayo dressing on it. Yums.

Pistachios AGAIN.

Oops, a few chips. I wanted crunch! Don't tell me to eat carrots for crunch!

What do people snack on if its not nuts? Too many nuts aren't good but am I expected to have vegetables at my desk all the time? ew. Sometimes I want dry crunchy stuff.

My body is sore from last night's workout. The squats, the burpees and ball slams. It feels good to feel the pain again, too often I don't feel it.

Had a coconut chocolate healthy whatever bar. It was good. Too many calories though. We won't mention it again.

Crossfit /  did some shoulder presses and a metcon that involved burpees, kettlebell swings, box jumps and push ups. Wasn't as bad as yesterday, probably because it's less hot. It's fall tomorrow again, by the way. I'm ok with it, I'll wear socks and good ol' leathy. :)

K, I made spaghetti squash and meat sauce, but it was ready too late so I just had a protein smoothie (powder/banana/strawberry/almond-coconut milk/vanilla) and some cauli soup. It was a no teeth-puree kinda night. Not for dieting reasons, more for convenience. I had a few large spoonfuls of the meat sauce though, once it was done. And it was GOOOD.

Then I had a bath. Bath season is back.


Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Wednesday Adams

Apparently the Wednesday Adams look is in style this season. Whatever that means. It's not literal because bitches wouldn't have the balls to properly dress like Wednesday. They mean "harsh centre parts" in their hair, dark lipstick... oooohhhhh you H&M regulars are SO EDGY!! Make sure you buy that jacket Pinterest says is so cool and pose pigeon-toed for the camera. zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Sorry, I'm becoming a bitter old person. Or maybe I just see through everyone.

Chris Kirpatrick is on BT - he is a chubby dad now. Good luck in the dance studio. OMG bitch.

Sleep was good actually. MA sent me a text that she was going to Soho house. I was jealous because in my cab ride home from work the other night we passed by it and I went on about how I needed to be in there at some point. I need to make rich friends. Get away from me, poor people!!! That bag is so common. Where did you get those boots, Zellers!? haha kidding of course. Kinda. Just about the clothing.

Chia pudding - I put a lot of cocoa powder. Added some protein powder, froz blueberries and coconut buttah. Tastey.

mixed nuts

Gonna buy lunch today - a salad probs, cuz I'd rather eat my leftovers for dinner. WAIT. I have soup still. Score.

Hump day. This week was mega crabby, I was very irritable, but maybe I'm over it. We'll see how today goes. I managed to sleep so that could help.

big salad from Freshii
chicken/freshii mix/beets/dates/sprouts/tomatoes/roasted red peppers/broccoli/sun dried tomatoes.. balsamic dressing. avocado. I load up on those free vegetables and their balsamic is good.

pistachios, an apple

CROSSFIT kicked my ass. completely.

chicken snausage / carrots / cauli soup

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

2013 Challege

Alright now I'm back. I'm officially on another "real food challenge" even though I said I was bailing on Paleo a while back. Why am I doing this? Because I am not comfortable in my skin right now and I need to change that, even if it means being tight with my diet. I can't say "fuck this" and eat what I want because I gain weight easily.

So, I'm on day 2 of: NO sugar / NO alcohol / NO grains / NO dairy (maybe butter).
And I'm gona rock this and fit into my jeans again. Little treats add up. THISISWHYYOUREFAT.

ain't nothin free. There were some amazing gourmet cookies at work yesterday, of course. I dodged that bullet - not worth it. I can bare it for 5 weeks, I've done it before and it will be worth it once I look good in that AA dress again. It's happening. Oh yes. I refuse to let the winter blues get me fat again. Fuck this and fuck that.


Sleep was not the best, mainly because I went to bed too late and woke up too early.

2 eggs / 2 bacon

At work:
handful mixed nuts

chicken drumstick
a large tomato
olive oil

apple + mixed nuts

New discovery! Jamaican yams. Good shit. Saw them at the G-store and figured I'd give them a whirl. I like experimenting with new produce. There is no "miss" if you just look up a goddamn recipe. OR assume that Jamaican yams are related to "regular" yams and treat them the same. No brainer. Tasted like squash kinda. Sweet ish, starchy. Noms. I chopped them, coated them with ghee and baked them for breakfast on Saturday. Had them with eggs, so good! I bought a spaghetti squash and I plan on having spaghetti squash + sauce. Just like real spaghetti but without the big belly.

Crossfit happened. Why do I feel like I'm out of shape? My pullups/L-sits are shit. It's my fault, I don't practice my pullups. New goal. Also pushups - for shame.

Rowe farms chicken sausage
red pepper / mushrooms BBQ'd

2 dates, few almonds

Went to bed kinda early.

Saturday, August 31, 2013


Hey guys, I'm not back, but I made this and it turned out amazing


I made a vegan cake because I didn't have eggs and I chose to make it lime because I had a bunch of limes that needed baking.

Friday, July 19, 2013

Crazy week

This week turned out to be a write off for exercise. Nutrition was okay, although I drank a lot last night. Mostly V+S though. And I def ate crappy pub food, did my best to steer clear of any wheat. Also I had gelato yesterday. Ok maybe this week was a semi write off for nutrition. I was doing well the beginning of the week. Back on track today, going for dinner with some friends so I'll make wise choices.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Hidee HO

Helloo I'm back from vacation, which ended over 2 weeks ago. And I'm back on track. I fully binged and didn't care about what I ate while in France, because why the fuck would I deny myself ANY of that pleasure?! You're a fucking fool if you do. Yes I said that and I don't give a fuck. Life is short, leave your eating disorder at home when on vacation.


Now that I'm back home and none of my pants fit (not kidding), I'm tightening up my diet and watching my food intake and fat/protein/carb ratios. I've purchased some good quality probiotics to get my gut nice and healthy and hopefully to help de-bloat from all the baguettes and cheese I ate. I'm cutting off grains for the next two weeks, just to "see" how I feel. That includes rice, quinoa, all that.. even beer. I can do it, 2 weeks isn't much.

I am aware that my thighs and ass are bigger due to the heavy lifting I've been doing. And you know what, it's not so bad. They're not fat chunky cellulite legs - not that there is anything wrong with cellulite, we all have some anyway... but they've got some shape. And that's cool. I just need to work on getting the proper fit of jeans. I think I'll wait until the weather cools down to worry about that, and give myself a chance to make some changes with my body over the next few months, with running, CF and nutrition. And if nothing even changes I'll accept that and move on. I do want to reduce the belly though, if anything. So, I'm limiting alcohol intake to weekends - I think - and laying off the beer for sure.

So today:

2 eggs, 3 bacon


2 chicken thighs bone in, broccoli and beets

steak, asparagus, tomatoes

Tuesday, June 4, 2013


Sleep was ok, I'm a bit tossy and turny.

2 eggs, sweet potato hash, 1/2 avocado

few cherries, blueberries

chicken again, spinach

more cherries/blueberries
a pear


Monday, June 3, 2013


Sleep was garb.

1 egg, sweet potato hash, 1/2 avocado

leftover chicken stuff, spinach

Cherries, blueberries

Crossfit, T'was good.

Spinach salad: turkey slices, marys GF crackers, cheese, mushrooms, 1 tomato, balsamic vin. dressing.

Think I might have more cherries!

Sunday, June 2, 2013

2 weeks

Two weeks til vacation. I realize being 'beach ready' is not possible at this point, so I'll just do my best to feel great for when we leave.

I'm going to have to eat as clean as possible the next two weeks so I'm not gross and bloated. It's starting today, I've only had a smoothie all day. Not for starvation reasons but because we had no food. Actually I had som GF crackers/cheese/turkey breast.

Dinner is coconut milk chicken random recipe with sweet potato hash. Dinners all week will be friggin salads f'sho.

I have 2 social events this week then a wedding. EFF.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013


This week is meh. Monday sucked kinda, I was tired from having the worst cramps on Sunday. So bad I was over the toilet ready to barf. So that just sucked the life right outta me. I didn't get to go shopping or make food cuz I had zero energy +pain. So Monday I had no lunch, I had to buy a salad. When I got home I got some chicken ready for the oven. Put coconut milk, ginger, garlic, cardamon and ceyenne all over the meat. Put it in a glass casserole dish and stuck it in the over. About 5 minutes later I head a crash. Guess what happened?

I was pretty upset. Dinner ruined and a big mess, waste of good food. FUUUH.

So for dinner I got some italian chicken cutlet sangwidges. Fuckit.

Crossfit was good though, I smashed the metcon, using 25# dumbells for my thrusters, while the guy beside me used 20's.

I went to bed at around 1030, but played on the ipad for a bit. I need to be in bed by 10, and asleep before 11 if I'm waking up at 7 ish. I need 8 hours of sleep. It is a fact that it is a factor in weight loss and fitness. You need to friggin sleep more than 6 hours or your body just hangs onto fat. Truth. I ate at 9, which was like 2 hours before I slept-not good either. Ugh, get yourself together!

Today is like friggin October again, cold and wet.

I have to buy lunch again. WRST.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

May Chickapay

Well May has been up and down in all aspects of life. But let's try and live day to day, shall we?

This week I've been killing it at the gym. If I go tonight and Saturday, that's 5 days at CrossFit this week. I fucking love that, and I feel great. Aside from the kink in my neck which I think is from sleeping weird on it.

Clothes don't fit me like they used to. It's a combo if my increase in muscle and fat of course. I'm small up top, but thicker down below. I don't have dumps like a truck or anything, but I do have thick legs and arse. It's not convenient for shopping at cheapy stores like HM. Ugh I need to get dresses for the weddings I have coming up. Stress.


Sleep was shyte. I get fucked up sleeps when I'm PMS-ing. For the record, PMS means PRE-menstrual syndrome. Not CURRENT menstrual syndrome.

banana/blueberry/hempheart/coconut/blabla cereal. Not filling enough

Trail mix snack

Leftover tilapia + asparagus + avocado.

can't wait! slow cooking some chicken mexican style. yerp.

Friday, May 17, 2013


2 eggs, sauteed spinach + quinoa , cheddar cheese

trail mix. Wish I never discovered the stash.

Pre lunch:
strawberries, pantain chips

Late lunch:
spinach, quinoa, tuna salad. Dressing was lemon juice + oilive oil BORING.

Pre crossfit:
almonds and dates


shoulder presses 3RM was 65/70#.
backsquats 3x3@ 125#.

same as breakfast.

I'm addicted to crossfit, I love it.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Brief summ

The race was good, it was cold and windy and annoying in that sense but I completed it without walking. Which is great. It took about the same amount of time as the last two 10k races I participated in. I'm looking to do that 15km in August, just to set another goal for myself. I like that it's in the evening as well.

My diet recently has been very mixed, but moderate. I like it this way. Although I don't feel or look skinny, I feel alright with myself. I may be on the road to accepting my body for what it is. I don't want to go to great lengths for my ideal body because it likely won't happen and it will be really hard to keep up with in the long term. Right now, I'm focusing on getting my strength exercises in, winning at them, eating well, not starving and not being on a restrictive diet. If I feel like something, I get it. Except I always feel like eating cookies and I just can't these days.

I got a nice mani-pedi yesterday, and I forgot what it's like to have perfectly manicured nails. I like my nails in their natural state, 99% of the time, but a little colour is nice as well.

Vacation is coming up, looking forward to visiting the motherland yet again. I'll be documenting it all the way for sure.

Last night we went out for dinner because we felt like it. I had beer because I wanted it and dessert too. Although that dinner sat heavy in my stomach all night, the hot pepper sauce didn't help.

Tonight I crossfit and eat a light salad for dinner.

Saturday, May 11, 2013

10k Race Eve

'Tis the eve of the 10k which I haven't trained enough for. I know I can do it, it just might take me longer than the last two times. I reckon I'll complete it in 1:15. I'm drinking a beer right now, today's nutrition hasn't been best. Naughty.

I had a big breakfast of potatoes, eggs, bacon and bread. Also an unnecessary cupcake. I'm over this challenge.

At home later I had a rice cake + peanut butter. Now I'm drinking a Rickards Shandy, it's a light beer at least. Meh. I'm trying not to be too different with this race, just living life. I know I won't run out of "fuel", it's only 10km, not a marathon. I don't need to "carb load", so they say.

Dinner will be a nice steak and vegetables on the BBQ.

I'll let you know how the race goes. I'll be starting with some friends and my aunt. I think around 5 or 6 people. We want to grab breakfast after, hopefully somewhere walkable I don't want 3 stinky sweaty bodies in on my car seats without protection. Including my own stinky sweaty body, but I'll bring a towel or blanket to sit on.

Well, good luck everyone! Get a good night's sleep and stay hydrated. I'll be running on an empty stomach, I can't run with food in there.

If I enjoy this race I'm signing up for the Midsummer Night's Run in August, it's a 15km yikes!! But I like that it's in the evening and it's down by the beach, so it's nearby. Check out the photos, it's funny, people dress up in weird outfits. Cool!!

Monday, May 6, 2013

Suddenly Summer

Two weeks ago it was cold, grey and shitty. Two weeks ago I was walking down my street, feeling frustrated that the trees were still bare and the clouds were still around wondering when the fuck the sun would show his fucking bright face. Then, out of nowhere it seems, the trees are green, flowers have bloomed and the sun is blazing. And I mean BLAZING. I went for an hour long run yesterday, (during peak sun time) and like and idiot I didn't wear sunscreen. I guess I didn't think it was a full summer sun. Guess who was wrong? And guess who has a permanent racer back tank top on her back now? Not to mention a red, sore fucking sunburn. A real sunburn. The girl gets no burn in the caribbean but a red back from an hour in the sun in Toronto. I mean, on vacation and in the summer I almost always wear sunscreen. But I neglected to do so yesterday and now I pay. Foolish gril. Skin damage. Ew, is it gonna peel? I haven't had one like this in like 20 years, not even kidding. I was even uncomfortable sleeping. Who am I?!!

Ok, let's talk about this challenge at work. I'm not stressing about it but I have to reset my points because I ate my forbidden things this weekend. Gluten and sugar.  But yesterday I was back on track.

Sleep wasn't great for obvious reasons.

Cereal: hemp hearts, 1/2 banana, raspberries, strawberries, coconut flakes, cacao nibs, almond/coconut milk, cinnamon. Goood. (Lyzabeth cereal haha)

Salmon (we planked some fresh salmon last night). our lives will never be the same.

Tuna, cherry tomatoes, avocado, kale, feta salad.

Crossfit was fucking hard, it was hot and my legs ached all night.

Sunday, April 28, 2013


Sat on the front porch and ate breakfast, drank my coffee and spied on the neighbourhood. Summer is coming.. RIGHT?!

2 rice cakes, pb, raspberries, coconut.

Going to a bridal shower today. I'm sure there will be lots of treats, but Nadia and I are going for a run together right after so that'll keep me from overeating. I'll eat for energy and perhaps treat myself to one thing. May challenge is happening - whether I officially participate or not - and I'm starting now.

Competition is fun. I'm not starving, I'm eating whole, nutritious foods. Protein. No sugar/wheat/corn. Watch. I'm curious to see how other people do. You think it's easy dropping sugar from your diet? People will still eat honey and other "natural" sweeteners I'm sure. Which essentially isn't giving up sugar at all so they'll never know what it's really like or the true effects (haaaa). But, I'm not preaching to everyone. They can fucking learn on their own and think they're 'off sugar'. But when you do drop sugar in ALL FORMS, you know it. And you see it. But why would I encourage people I'm competing against? That doesn't work in my favour.

Happy Sunday, it's beautiful out today.

Saturday, April 27, 2013

errhhm Weekend

Friday night I went out for dinner with mah fren. I had ribs, yam fries, a polenta thing, wine and an awesome brownie a la mode.

No regrets, ALL GOOD.

Sleep was bad because my cramps kicked my ass. Went out for breakfast, I had an omelette, sweet potato/white potato hash and toast. Ok, I fucking love toast and I miss it. Toast with butter is the fucking BOMB. And you know what, I feel fine. I'm not gassy and I had plenty of energy for my 6.9km run. I could have done a whole 7 or even 7.5 but the route I mapped ended up at just under 7km. I'm ok with it. Tomorrow it's an 8km.


Period has arrived, late and with a vengeance. This explains some of my bloating this week. Had bad cramps in the night though.

We're doing a fitness - nutrition challenge at work. For the month of May. the rules aren't clear yet, but one of them is working out 6 days a week, which, once I realized that, is too much. I think it should be minimum 4 days, you need rest days when exercising. We all know what happens when you over exercise. you put stress on your body, increase cortisol and put on weight. Fat. Lost muscle. All of which we don't want. I'm gona push this at our meeting Monday. If you wanna work out 6 days, go ahead, but we should put a realistic, healthy minimum as the requirement. OR, I just won't participate. :) I don't need extra pressures about fitness and diet.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Where was i?

I don't feel like recalling all that I ate yesterday. It was average, I also ran 5.82km. I was aiming for 7km but I truly wasn't feeling it. I had low energy. I thought that by eating that sweet potato at 4pm would give me a carb energy jolt. It did the opposite. Noted.

Made cauli pizza inspired by Narine. It was really good and we ate 3 pieces each. Also had a glass of wine and some cadbury chocolate. Whoops. It fucked up my sleep, not good.


Breakfast Smoothie:
1/2 banana, blueberries, raspberries, coconut milk, protein pwd and kale. The kale was meh. kinda made it taste "green". But I needed to use it up.

At work:
the other half of my banana + 1 hard boiled egg. I can't do smoothies for breakfast, I never learn. Tomorrow I'm eating a proper meal. Eggs. Eggs and cauli pizza.

1 red pepper, eggplant strata

2 mini cupcakes. I only regret it because the sugar fucked my mood. I was ok eating the calories. It was the effects of the sugar I didn't dig.

I worked a bit late, I wasn't prepared food-wise. I ate a small bowl of chips because I was ravenous and hangry.

Also ate an apple and another egg. I was super hungry today and none of my meals sufficed.

At home, eggplant strata AGAIN, quinoa and kale chips.

rice cake + pb + honey + coconut.

I calculated my calories, I've consumed about 2000. Wow. Apparently that is still less than I require. So crazy.


It's been about a week since I had my fuck paleo epiphany. And you know what? I don't know how I feel about it. I mean, yes, I am more relaxed and not kicking my own ass for "cheats" but at the same time, I just feel better eating clean. I like not being bloated. I literally felt like garbage AFTER I ate that cupcake. I know how my body reacts to things. And I like being part of a healthy lifestyle. I want to fuel my body for the day, for my workouts, for my sleeps. And it's kind of fun focusing on healthy foods. Just not obsessing. Which is difficult, given my personality. I feel bloated and large, I am not ok with it. Granted my period is due any day now.. but still. I felt fat before this. Not just feel, I IS fat right now. Fat for my own standards and I'm beyond my comfort in regards to body composition. I'm annoying myself right now actually because I won't shut up about it.

The thing is, it's been a long time since I've learnt this way of eating, and I've become accustom to it. My meals are meat + veg. I like having a full high protein breakfast, it keeps me full for longer. I don't know if I wanna stray from that. It might just be the fat/protein/carb ration that did it. Perhaps I was just off. I'm still figuring it out. I have 8 weeks until vacation. Plenty of time to clean up my act without killing myself.


Monday, April 22, 2013

Monday Meh

Sleep wasn't graet. I blame the sugar.

raspberries, coconut flakes, cacao nibs, coconut/almond milk, cinnamon.
piece of the GF lemon loaf my friend made. It had buckwheat in it. Gave me gas.

Self: buckwheat - NO.

small apple + almond butter. not buying anymore almond butter

Rapini + eggplant strata

1 homemade cookie, it was a plain sugar cookie. Not worth it considering all that I ate this weekend. Yes I still think like this and YES I need moderation, not daily treats. 1 Cheat day a week works better than spread out daily snacks. Fuck that.

The only good thing about having goodies in the office is that I can watch other people eat them and feel better about myself and my strength - if I have it at that moment. Yes I want to relax but I'm not getting fatter because of it.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Eat the food

Yesterday at our family party I ate everything. Pick something, anything, I probably ate it. And drank some.

Sleep was kind of shit because I was gassy and full. Ain't nothin free, homie. Granted I shouldn't have had the pizza, pasta, bread, cupcakes, regular cake, ice cream cake,,, see? I wasn't exaggerating. But damn was it good. Ice cream cake?. Are you kidding? I fucking LOVE ICE CREAM CAKE. I'm a bit disgusted with myself but on the bright side, I had a nice fresh fruity breakfast today and completed a 7km run no problem. I could have ran farther. Further? Next week, 8k nbd.

Clean mind, clean food, carbs, no stress. Week 1 of new approach has begun. Today we feast at brothers for mothers bday round 2. Bring it.

I suggest you read gokaleo blog. It's wonderful, positive and doesn't shame you into calorie restriction. Also check this out. If you must count calories, use this calculator. You'd be surprise at how many calories your body actually requires, good to know healthy doesn't mean hungry.


Saturday, April 20, 2013

Friday of new life

On my way to freedom. I had a good day Friday. I cant say that I didn't stress over food at all,m or go to my calorie counter at any point, but I did let go and eat things I wouldn't normally eat on a paleo diet.

Breakfast was my banana, raspberry, coconut flake, flax,cashew cereal. I could have done without the cashews. Or not. It was delicious and refreshing.

At work I had a few handfuls of a trail mix which had m&ms in it. Plus candied nuts. Ok I know I shouldn't go wild on sugar but I also shouldn't stress about it.

Lunch was sushi with friends. It was delicious. I was definitely burping it later in the evening so maybe it's not that great after all. 

A work I had some cider, beer and treats. 

Went to crossfit, it was a mega squat day and today my legs hurt. I love that.

Had a sausage and veggies for dinner. Later had wine and popcorn! Mmmm.

However I was full all night, even going to bed. I don't like that feeling, I prefer going to bed a bit hungry.

Anyway, today we have my aunts bday. I will be eating great food and seeing my family. Nothing stressful about that!!

Tomorrow I will run 7km, just like I promised myself.

Is morning I had rice cakes, pb, coconut flakes , cinnamon and honey. Followed by a simple protein smoothie of frozen berries, chlorophyll, protein, coconut milk from a can (it was thick like cool whip so I put 3spoons of it) topped it off with water and cocoa powder. It wasn't delicious but it wasn't bad.

I'm going to get groceries soon. I will still be buying lots of veg and healthy meat. But I'm also buying quinoa and maybe even organic Greek yogurt.. Maybe. I don't know if I'm ready for rice pasta just yet.

That's it. 

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Why I'm Quitting Paleo.

After my horrific (exaggerating) shopping experience, a meat heavy dinner and a relaxing night at home, I came to the decision I am "quitting paleo". It's been just over a year since I've adopted this diet–all on my own, I might add. I've completed two 5 week challenges (voluntarily!) and kept my diet MOSTLY paleo the rest of the time. I've avoided grains, sugars (on and off) and kept my meat/fat/veg intake pretty high. I've gotten my fats from nuts, avocados, healthy oils and animals. I've tried recipes, I've avoided certain social situations and I've cut back on my drinking. Yet here I am, fatter than I was a year ago. I am working out more. I am SO conscious of what I eat, but perhaps to the point of my demise. This obsession with weight loss, this struggle with food is doing no good for my mind or body. I think too much about what I eat, I get stressed out when I "fail" or "cheat", and I truly can't go on living this way. If I look back on my thinner days, you know what? I wasn't even eating paleo. Sure, I don't want sugar in my life daily, I can totally keep that promise. But I can't promise I won't have rice sometimes, quinoa, fucking BREAD here and there. And I DONT wanna feel guilty about it. I want variety in my diet. I want to fucking eat PEANUT BUTTER on my rice cakes in the morning if I have a craving, and I want to do it all without ANY negative feelings. I can't avoid feeling like shit when I gorge on chips or drink my face off. That is my own fault and I can own that (but sometimes it's worth it :). But if I want to make rice pasta one night, I'm going to fucking make it. I want regular potatoes around my roast. I want to make potato wedges sometimes and eat them with ketchup. I miss cheese! MAYBE I want to eat some pad thai. But mostly, I want to increase my raw veg/fruit intake. I am no longer looking at fruit as "bad" or "too much sugar". Fuck that. Fresh fruits and vegetables are beautiful and I will eat them when I FEEL like eating them. Over the past year I have conditioned myself to fear grains, fear "too much fruit", and believe that paleo is the way to go. But you know what? Maybe it's not. Maybe there IS such thing as too much meat/fat. For me. For my body. There is no such thing as a universal diet that works for everyone. Maybe I'm supposed to eat more of a Mediterranean diet? I mean I have roots down there. Maybe That's my thing. NO! I don't want a "thing". I don't want to eat a certain way or label my life. I want to live my life. Enjoy things I enjoy. Eat delicious, nutrient-dense foods. Stay active, physically, mentally, creatively. I don't want to have bad associations with food and I'm sick of guilt. I'm sick of feeling fat and looking at my fat belly in the mirror. Fuck that and fuck your labels. You give your body what it wants, craves, needs. OK not YOU, ME. I am listening to my body from now on and I'm not beating myself up about made-up bad choices. I've decided what I fear and I've created this orthorexic monster, I can own this. But from now on, I will not google whether a food is paleo, or a certain ingredient is paleo. If I want to make a dessert, I will make it to the fullest. Don't get me wrong, I will still make "healthy" treats, I just feel better doing it and like experimenting. But you're god damn right I'm having a piece of cake for a celebration. You're god damn right I'm having some wine with my dinner. Fuck you, eating-style labels, and fuck you internet. (just kidding I love you.)

But here it is.

I am breaking up with paleo. I need a break from this unnecessary stress. I might not look great in a bikini in the summer but what the fuck do you want from my life?! I understand where you come from and I get that it works for lots of people. But I am giving it up for a while, just to see how I feel. See how things go. See if I become lighter in all aspects. It doesn't mean I am pigging out on poutine, it means I am going easy on myself from now on.

What do you think of that?

Wednesday, April 17, 2013


I dunno what to tell you. I'm fat right now. I tried on clothes at Zara and nothing fit well or looked good. I spent a good number of years being able to try things on and feel good, look good in most stores. Things have changed and I don't like it one bit.

Sleep was ok.

banana / egg/  protein / pb pancakes + berries


small can tuna, 1 red pepper, 1/2 avocado

Snowpeas + coffee

1.5 sausages, sweet potatoes, zucchini

Today was a fat day and lead me to look up quitting paleo.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

4 week 10k countdown

It has begun. I have less than 4 weeks now to build up my endurance to run a 10k, ideally without breaks. My longest run so far has been 6.72km. This weekend will be a full 7k. What I've learned from reading training books, you build up to 10k without actually running the full 10k til race day. So, I have my schedule all written up for the next few weeks. It looks something like this (CF = crossfit, X = rest days)

Week 1:  M: 6.72k  /  T: CF  / W: 6k  / Th: X  /  F: X  / Sat: CF  / Sun:  7k

Week 2:  M: CF  /  T: 7k  /  W: CF  /   Th: X  / Fr: X  /  Sat: CF  /  Sun : 8k

I shift things around depending on what the forecast is, because I can swap CF/run days based on rain. But I need to keep my running at 4x/wk. with CF in between and rest days.

Fuck rain! But please feed my plants :)

Sleep was ok, I had trouble falling asleep which is weird since I ran.

Jamie was off so he made a lovely steak dinner with veggies and a nice bottle of Bordeaux. I know I'm supposed to be off the Jesus juice but come on, it's Jesus juice!!

I had treats this weekend, and ate a crappy meal at Jack Astors. Note to self: don't go to Jack Astors for anything other than the buffalo chicken wings and fries. Period.

I made a little orange loaf cake for my mom, and she made a vanilla cake. No regrets.


2 eggs, pumpkin, coconut flakes, strawberries, cashews, bit of almond flour, cinnamon + spices, honey.

Snack at work:
apple + almond butter. Don't buy this, self!

Leftover steak + veg + avocado

Lara bar + snow peas

i need to not snack at work. at all.

At home:
Cashews + 1 date

Crossfit. Hard.

small can garlic/hot pepper tuna + quinoa
kale - baked with chipotle pepper + chilli powder. OMG, i'm eating the entire bunch.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

April showers...

Sleep was not great, not bad though. Bad for me is 3 hours.

pumpkin/protein powder/egg pancakes with berries and a bit of PB and reg B. What.


I need meat in the morning to sustain me til lunch. Tomorrow morn I'm frying up some g. beef.

Shep pie. All gone!

Bought chlorophyll. Tastes like lake water.

Apple + sugar snap peas. They tasted weird. Can't wait til the farmers market is back. Fresh seasonal fruit/veggies are the best, man.

Pre CF
1 pumpkin pancake w/butter

Crossfit. Good. Drank protein powder + water during. May sound weird but I really like the taste of my plain powder with water. it tastes like white chocolate to me but not really. Kinda. It's milky or something.

3 bacon, 2 eggs, 1/2 sweet potato, 1/2 acovado. Paleo much?

Monday, April 8, 2013

spring a ling

Today, guys, it feels like spring. I know it's probably gonna get colder this week but I refuse to acknowledge it. We did some spring cleaning this weekend, and I MAJORLY cleaned my room, cleaned the closet out, PUT MY WINTER CLOTHES AWAY and organized things like a creepy person: dresses together, t-shirts together, bed clothes together.. creepy.

Nutrition wasn't bad, but wasn't perfect. I was sick so I didn't work out, I didn't wanna risk extending the sickness into this week, so I chilled. But I feel much better now and I'm ready to train hard for this 10k (and the beaches this summer :). I did have a few alc beverages, which isn't the wisest when you're not feeling great, but no regrets. I also ate a bag of sweet potato chips. Also not wise, but I'm over it.

Sleep was ok, I was coughing a bit in the beginning so it took a while to fall asleep. I need to get a new book - like proper book, not iBook - to wind down with. I started reading a free sample of Wheat Belly, and I'm into it. Shit, I meant to go to Chapters to buy it today. Maybe it's cheaper online.

1 sausage
sweet potatoes
1/4 avocado
few cashews

leftover shep pie
sugar snap peas
few strawberries/almond butter for dessert.

Crossfit. Metcon kicked my arse, felt good.

Chicken carnitas, kale, red peppers

Cashews and 2 dates

Friday, April 5, 2013

Thurs Fri

Let's see

I worked late again Wednesday night, we had Fresh for dinner. Italian raw bowl. One of the only tasty things on their menu that is paleo. Minus the meat part of paleo because Fresh is vegetarian/vegan.

I snacked on some nuts too that day. Too much nuts.


My sleep was better but I'm not going to bed early enough. Work was to blame for this but even in general. Gotta get on that. It'll be harder come summer.

I have lots of things going through my head at the moment: work / crossfit / health / and a trip to France which is happening/planned. In the stages of planning. We have our flights booked and accomodations sort of taken care of. Car reserved. Hopefully it'll be a relaxing vacation. Wish we could take 3 weeks in a row. This summer will be an expensive one with weddings and travel. Fucking weddings, man. I enjoy weddings, just not the forced events leading up to them. I don't like Jack and Jills and I truly never want to attend one ever again. I'm going to a bachelorette at a cottage which I think is a bit steep in regards to $$$ but fuck. Hoping it'll be fun though.

I verbally ranted with Narine just now about wedding things so my need to write it has passed.

Where was I.. Thursday. yes.

paleo banana/protein pancakes with berries.

Tuna salad from Fusaro's. Had a bocconcini ball in it. Not paleo, not caring.

Apple + almond butter.

Pre workout:
banana pancake w/butter

PR 150# backsquat 1RM
PR 77# shoulder press 1RM

I feel I could have gone heavier but I'm a bit sick right now. So my body isn't 100%.

Tilapia + stir fry broccoli / cauli / garlic / mushroom + bit of soy sauce/sesame oil/ginger
Soy sauce not paleo but not losing sleep over it.



Sleep wasn't great, like I said before, I'm a bit sick.

Not too hungry, had a banana/berry/coconut milk/protein smoothie

I don't record all the coffee I have during the day. On average I have some at breakfast and one or two at work before noon.

leftover tilapia/veg

I'd like to add that I'm proud of two people in my life.
1. Jamie for getting into walking. He's been walking 4km to work each morning for the past two weeks (only missing a few days due to lateness. It happens). That's really great and I'm happy he enjoys it and feels good about it. Maybe we can go for walks on the weekends.

2. My mom. She told me she's lost 25# since her last doc check up. That makes me happy and proud and I think it motivates her to get more healthy. And I'm there if she needs any help.

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Wednesday feels like Thursday

Thanks to two nights being late at work, Wednesday feels like Thursday. FUCK. There really is nothing worse (regarding late nights) than late nights on Mon/Tues. It fucking ruins and slows the week so bad. I haven't worked out, I have some personal records to set this week and I feel like my lack of sleep will affect it. :(

Speaking of lack of sleep, my 4 hours was aweseome. Full of anxiety and jitters. Go life.


roast beef, avocado, red pepper

salmon, arugula, red pepper, walnuts, avo/lemon juice dressing

roast beef


D 8pm
Salmon + veg stir fry, 1 egg


roast beef, egg, avocado

ROAST BEEF, veg stirfry

I'm sleep deprived, going through sugar withdrawal so I'm emotional, I have no patience and I just wanna cry. I desperately need to exercise, for my sanity and to help me sleep.

The good news is the scale reads 5 lbs less than Friday. I realize this is water retention but still, it's motivation. Sometimes the scale is motivating but I don't wanna be a slave to it. However, if the batteries hadn't been dead for ages maybe I wouldn't have put on so many pounds.

Few spoons almond butter. Damn.

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Well clearly I've been absent. And getting fat because I weighed myself yesterday (bad idea?) and basically it's 10lbs higher than it was a few months ago. I know the scale isn't your friend, but it says something. There is no way I've gained 10lbs of muscle, and to add to that, my clothes don't fit well. I'm not comfortable at this weight and I hate my fat face. Yes all I see is a fat face and thunder thighs. SO, that being said, Whole 30 has begun today. Fuck this shit, I have 10 weeks until my vacation and I am NOT going to feel uncomfortable in whispy, light dresses or in a bathing suit. In the heat, I wear minimal things. But I can only do this when I'm not a fatty like I am now. I have no one to blame but myself for slipping on the diet front. I've eaten too many treats, croissants and drank too much alcohol this past little while. It's not continuing.

Went to crossfit this morning. Did some shoulder presses @72# and speed deadlifts @ 115#.
Exercised a bit on the GHD thing and then rowed 1000m for time. I did it in 4:11:07. Not bad.

2 poached eggs, smoked salmon/sweet potato hash. VERY good. I fucking love eggs. All different ways.

Got groceries. Making rogan josh tonight with cauli something or other.

I said I'd bring a dessert to my brother's Easter dinner tomorrow - oh yeah good luck to me on making good choices with all that food around. I'm sticking to it, man. I'm making the decadent chocolate cake from one of my Paleo Comfort Foods. It looks delicious I was asked to make a gluten free dessert ok? I'm not being selfish here.

I plan on slicing some fresh strawberries on it. It'll be awesome. Here is a pic from the internet of someone's successful attempt:

And, that's all I got. Oh yeah I just came back from a 6k run. That's right, I exercised twice today. Clearly I'm desperate to lose this fat. I stayed in my gym clothes all day so that I would go out running this afternoon. It worked, but now I stink and need a bath. See yuuuh.

Easter update:

I didn't stick to it like I said. I had two small glasses of red wine. 
Def ate dessert and some g-free crackers, cheese.

At least the desserts were all g-free. But not paleo. Whole 30 begins MONDAY. Narine I had a dream you had lots of chocolate treats and I was mad and told you that you were a bad influence lulz.

I didn't overdo it at the fam jam like I normally do, so that's a good thing.

My cake turned out great. It was a little bitter, I used 70-85% dark choc bars plus unsweetened bakers chocolate. Next time I'll use all 70% chocolate or mix in some less %s. The texture was dense and rich. Tasted great with the sliced strawberries on top. Might try it with salted caramel or something. The leftovers are in the freezer for another time, when we reach out weight goals.

Monday, March 18, 2013

Spring week

Spring "starts" this week. You wouldn't know it though.

Weekend summary:
Friday went to crossfit at night and had a salad with salmon after

Went for a 5k run
Ate eggs after
Made amazing lettuce shell tacos

Went to cousins, ate a lot of food - not all crap, just large amounts - and drank

breakfast was leftover taco meat
rice crackers, sour cream was eaten

Ran 5k  -37min. Gonna try and bring it to 30.

Fish tacos. I used frozen haddock fillets (not fishy at all), baked them first then fried them with red peppers / ginger etc. I was inspired by Gordon Ramsay making tacos saturday morning. Fucking love cooking shows, inspiration city.
Again, lettuce as the shell. Such a great idea! Man it was good. Simple too.

Fucking Monday again.

Friday, March 15, 2013

Week summary

I've been pretty good with nutrition this week, although last night was a bit boozy and I ate pub grub + chips. Frig. Also I broke my sugar free week by having 2 Werthers and 1 small chocolate egg. Not worth it.

I've been to the gym twice and I plan on going tonight too so I don't have to wake up early tomorrow. Although if I get up at a decent time naturally, I will hit it up for workout #4.

I'm glad I didn't drink too much last night, I didn't wanna feel like ass today.

I definitely need to get training for this 10k. It was the reason I signed up anyway - to get my ass out there. I just really REALLY don't like running in cold weather. But now that it stays light out later, I have no excuses. It's not THAT cold. sheeyit.

2 eggs
sauteed red peppers
1/2 avocado


Monday, March 11, 2013

Weekend was full of food and laze.

I'm getting fatter and need to run.

Breakfast although wasn't hungry much
2 eggs, sweet potato

at work:
grande coffee

crock potted some eggplant strata overnight. Turned out great actually.

half of the Soma choc bar I got for my bday. The old style one, two ingredients: cocoa beans, sugar.


Skipped CF. Not too thrilled about the metcon, seemed boring.

While making dinner:
rice crackers
home made almond/coconut butter

Fish + salad

I'm gonna try and add more seafood to my life.

Monday, March 4, 2013


Sleep was shyte. Went to bed too late, woke up a few times and had to get up extra early for an 8:10 dentist appointment. Who does that??!

2 eggs
1/2 avo

At work:

chocolate (paleo) macaroon. Last one. Good riddance you delicious bastards.

Leftover roast / cauli mash / squash

Why did I eat those onions??! I CAN NOT EAT ONIONS. Fart city. Uncomfortable gas.


last bit of roast lunch - I didn't eat the whole thing at lunchtime.

spoonful a-butter / 1 date

It was goood, not crazy but good. 
80# push press, 4x5

Alright, I am not ok. I am definitely feeling depressed, more so than I have ever felt in my life. I could cry so easily it's ridiculous. I have no patience,  I am extremely irritable and I don't enjoy people's company like I used to. All I wanna do is take baths, go to crossfit, eat and sleep. Literally that is all I wanna do. I take baths like every day, no joke. Just to waste time until it's sleep time. I just sit there in the tub til my fingers get wrinkly, until all the bubbles disappear and until my brain can't handle thinking anymore. I am poor company. I don't like being this way, not at all. I look at other people and wonder what it's like to feel normal. I wonder if they actually do feel normal and if they have any idea what other people are going through, what the F goes on in their heads.

I can no longer cope with people who are so self absorbed that they only talk about themselves. They don't inquire about other people's lives, they just yap away about their own garbage boring life. I can't take it. I can't do one-sided conversations anymore. I won't. I've gone on lunch dates with friends and not once did they ask how I was. I just had to sit there and listen to them talk about the mundane events happening in their lives. But what's most important is it's about them, right? Sometimes I chime in just so they stop talking and it was funny to hear that one of my friends does that too, when they are dealing with a self-talker. It's crazy. It needs to be pointed out to these people because they have no idea they do it. It is so unattractive and it is not good company.

I constantly feel like Michael Douglas in Falling Down. I reference this a lot because it is absolutely true. El-snappo Here are some examples:

I want breakfast.

Briefcase hijackers.


Friday, March 1, 2013


Alcohol was consumed last night, as well as delicious food and some treats. See what happens when I deprive myself of sweets? I binge when I start. Fuckit. Moderation. Besides, once I start running, I'll be in slimmer town in no time.

Sleep was garb due to booze. Woke up with the sweats at what, 5am? Usual.

Bacon and eggs.

At work:
yogurt and honey

Eggplant strata. There was one in the freezer, yay.

Crossfit tonight.

Thursday, February 28, 2013


Sleep was weird. I woke up in the night and brain turned on instantly. I turned it off and went back to sleep. Stil a weird night's sleep.

last of the meatball stew

At work:

Tuna salad from Fusaro's.
They had delicious pastries to sample. I dodged.
Narine is eating a delicious chocolate cookie, I'm jealous.

I've avoided the candies that have been on the table here for two reasons:
1) they're candy and not worth the hellish feeling afterwards
2) a dog was licking them the other day and I haven't had the heart to tell everyone.

I think that yogurt I bought yesterday gave me rumbly gas. Dislike.

No crossfit tonight. Tomorrow or Saturday am.

Wednesday, February 27, 2013


Sleep was ok

2 rice cakes, almond butter, blueberries

Not ideal

apple, cinnamon

1 sausage
roasted veggies
celery + baba ghanjouhjgklsdhgjksdf

Afternoon snack:
strawberries and greek yogurt
fail because I feel weird now.

Also I keep burping sausage air. Gross.

I feel super tired all of a sudden. I blame the stupid yogurt. Fine I had a bit of honey too. Frig.

Shoulder pressed 70#
Metcon was brutal

Meatball stew, avocado
some chips
cheese + rice crackers


Monday, February 25, 2013


Weekend recap


Raw Aura

Real Pizza - Not worth it, stomach hurt after. Next time I crave chips for dinner, I'll just have chips for dinner.
Chicken wings x4

Greek food



Little sleep

blueberries, coconut, almonds, c-milk, bit of yogurt

at work
beef jerky.

Meatball stew

Friday, February 22, 2013


I'm skipping Thursday.

Just know that it was flawless for nutrition and I went to Crossfit.


Sleep was ok. Should be going to bed earlier.

2 eggs
1 bacon
0.25 avocado
hot sauce

Jamie's dad's homemade beef jerky. amaze.

3 tomatoes
avo oil

Trail mix

Orange pekoe tea

Would be nice to hit up CF tonight so I don't have to go tomorrow.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Short week

Sleep was ok, went to bed too late though.

3 eggs
.25 avocado

yes, three eggs. I don't wanna snack before lunch.

eggplant chicken strata


spinach salad w/home made balsamic dressing
some coconut shreds

pan fried apple in coconut oil w/cinnamon, nutmeg - THIS is my new (desperate times) dessert. No added sweeteners, all natural taste. Just like apple pie filling. YES.

I didn't go to crossfit tonight. I was bothered by that decision.

I'm using this extra time to wind down and go to bed early. It was nice eating dinner before 7.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013


Back to work, great. That weekend just whipped by. K, Tim McGraw is on BT and he is so fit right now. You wanna know how? He has a "strict diet and works out three times A DAY (with Daniel Craig's trainer). Can you say unrealistic celebrity perks? I'd be ripped if I had time for that shit too.

Sleep was ok, not long enough and getting out of bed was super hard.

blueberries / 0.5 banana / coconut / c-milk / cacao nibs / cinnamon / few almonds
I love this makeshift cereal. I just didn't feel like meat.

Eating healthy and clean = calories / nutrients. The calories you eat must be nutrient-rich. I think that breakfast had nutrients, it was just lacking in protein.

Shep pie + 1 Tbsp avocado a la Reen. Thanks, that fat was needed to keep me satiated. (new word).


Chicken eggplant strata
1/4 avocado

Tea time. Bed soon.

Crossfit was great, I need to work on my double unders. And chins.

Pressed 65# 4x4. Good times.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Fam Day

Sleep was garbage. My niece is the worst to sleep with, she flopped around like crazy and kicked me in my ass. I had to go to the couch. I just had an uneasy sleep because I felt like I had to be on alert.

Bacon n Eggs

Few lara balls. There. They're gone.

At parents:
Sliced meat, cheese
Small piece of quiche
few chips

Had a short nap at home, it was needed.

Bag of popchips. :(
Small serving of shep pie

I'm making some sort of eggplant/chicken strata casserole. wingin it. I want fuel for the week.

chicken breast strata turned out great, considering it's chicken breasts. I keep forgetting about chicken thighs, I like them better. But not baked in a casserole.

Had a small bowl of it. Had to taste it!!


coconut milk
coconut shreds
In a bowl.

Made chocolate salty balls - they were the best ever. I tested a few.
attempted to make coconut butter - failed. didn't cream.

Girlies came over

Salt & Vinegar chips were had before dinner

I taught them to make jewelry with feathers and all the crap I had, they enjoyed it.

I then put Labyrinth on for them while dinner cooked. They liked it! Win! I was wondering if they were noticing Bowie's bulge because its so prominent. And why is it funny now, but not funny then?

Shep pie from Well Fed. I seasoned it "Mexicana' and it was great.
Bit of squash

After dinner we went for a walk along the beach. Not a very long one, it was bitter out.

Came back, did our face masks then watched Hotel Transylvania. It wasn't good.
Had some popcorn with dinner.

Sunday, February 17, 2013


Had alcohol Friday night, that's it, my challenge is beginning now! Yes I just had wine but now NOW. I just looked at my ass and I'm not ok with it. That and my belly are not ideal at the moment.


It's too cold out. Thats my running excuse. -16??? no thanks.

I'm watching Coronation now, and enjoying myself actually. I have a coffee, my house is warm and clean and the laundry is started. My nieces are coming over later, the shep pie is ready to pop in the oven and all we need to do is hang out together. I'll think of some sort of facial mask to make them. Maybe we can paint our nails too. My mom was supposed to come as well, but last night she had an accident and scalded her hand and foot. Had to go to the hospital to get it bandaged. :( I tried convincing her to come still, since she won't have to do anything, but she can't even put a boot on her burned foot. The things nanas do for their family.

So, back to nutrition. Today is a new day. I'll eat breakfast once I feel starving. Plus, not eating gives me hope that I may jog.

Why can't we have a FOUR day weekend? The next holiday is in April, for Easter. Blerg.

What I ate yesterday:
banana pancakes. You know the ones.
I was hungry like an hour later so I ate some chicken.


few bites of the ground beef from shep pie.

quinoa, blueberries, coconut, coconut milk, cashews/almonds, cinnamon. So good!
Here is an article on quinoa, written by a respected, known paleo guy. I won't eat it all the time, but I'll throw it in the mix here and there. It's so versatile, great as a cereal or as a rice replacement.

Later MA came by for a nice, surprise visit! We shared a bottle of wine, ate the rest of the deli olives and polished off a bag of S&V Popchips. So good!


Friday, February 15, 2013


Sleep was ok, ate bad foods before bed. Bad meaning not paleo, not chips or anything.

berries, quinoa, banana, coconut milk + cinnamon

K, enough with the quinoa.

At work:
coffee, small chocolate cookie.

salad from Fusaros: tuna + greens + dressing, the usual.
there was a boccancini there.

On a positive, healthy fitness note: I'm starting a running club at work. So far I have 4 members and we are fucking running after work together. And I'm doing the 10k, enough of this chubby madness.

Thursday, February 14, 2013


Sleep was better than I thought considering I ate three cookies last night. go me.

leftover chicken curry type thing
1/2 avocado

The rest of the day included some wine/champaign, a few treats and later on we went out for dinner. It was all very delicious.

Oh, I did squeeze in a crossfit session though:


A. Shoulder Press 3×6, 1×7 at 75% / 65#), rest 3mins
B. Ring Rows 3×10+, rest 90sec

5 sets for quality:
2 tough TGU/side / 25# then 30# for the last 2 rounds. yih yih!
4 heavy DB thrusters / 25#'s
6 strict toe to bar / working on getting my feet up there.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013


Hump Day. Woooooo

Sleep wasn't great, but not terrible. I'm not tired til like 11pm, it's a problem.

4 or 5? meatballs
1/4 avocado

At work:
banana w/cinnamon
few pumpkin seeds. meh.

1 turkey sausage
sweet potato

I know I'll be hungry soon. I have a big orange for a snack. Not ideal.


I bailed on crossfit. I just wasn't in the mood. I felt like cooking dinner, relaxing and working on my work valentine. Ok I didn't 'feel like' working on my valentine, I just had to do it. And I didn't wanna be up late doing it. Oh well, maybe I'll go tonight.

I am currently unhappy with my weight, (complaining about to happen here). I am visibly fatter than I was a few months ago, and I'm not ok with it. I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. Not ok. I wish it wasn't winter, but I have no excuse for not running. I don't know why I'm afraid of running in the evening when it's dark. People do it, I see them all the time. And it's not like it's 1am. I wish I had a running partner.

chicken/eggplant/broccoli/red pepper curry in coconut milk

3 cookies. great.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013



I keep thinking this is a short week, probably because of the V-day festivities at work on Thursday. I am somewhat prepared.

Sleep was ok, I had to go pee in the night but I refused, resulting in a somewhat disrupted sleep.

2 eggs
sauteed red pepper/mushroom
1/4 avocado

5 meatballs
avo oil, S/P

Debating whether or not I go to CF tonight. I want to get my hair did (highlighted.) Yes, I want to change my hair AGAIN.

Snacks today:

I'm cutting down on the nut butters. FML.

The stupid treadmill doesn't fit with the bed in there. I need a solution that doesn't involve running outside.

Got my hair did today, I'm blonde again bitches. Blawwwwnd. I feel comforatble with this although I'm not too keen on my bowl cut. Not cutting it though, I just need to not wear it straight.

While the foils were in my hair I ran across to the convenience store and bought a banana + some shelled pumpkin seeds. Took the hunger away.

Turkey sausage
sweet potatoes
few macadamia nuts.

Need to hit CF Wed and Saturday.

Monday, February 11, 2013


Monday again. Fuck you, time. Fuck you to hell.

Today is the start of a new challenge at the gym, but I'm not sure I will participate officially. There are two ways to win: by gym performance or an essay/video.

Now, I'm being a pessimist, but I don't want to compete for performance because I don't think I'll win. Also, I am not a fan of assignments and being creative on my own time so that means I won't be doing a video. Therefore I have no prize motivation. I will, however, participate from afar, I think.

Wait, I have an idea for the video.. might do it.

Sleep was ok, not long enough because we stayed up to watch the boring Grammys.

2 eggs, spinach, handful maca nuts.

5 meatballs, arugula, almonds

1 big orange

Small can tuna - the lemon/dill kind
1 tomato

I kept burping tuna all night. No more cans of tuna.


A1. Back Squat 4×5 [50x0] @ approx 75%, rest 45s - 105#
A2. Chin-ups 4×4-8 [4010], rest 2.5mins - sucking at chinups

10min AMRAP: 5 push-up, 5 thursters @ 40% 1RM push press, 10 KB swing to chin level
Managed 7 rounds + 5 pushups + 2 thrusters

sauteed red pepper/mushrooms
olive oil
lemon juice
salad styles.

You know, I just didn't feel like eating meat for dinner. After burping tuna all evening, the thought of adding more meat protein was not appetizing. So I had quinoa. If I'm a gassy mess all night, I'll know why.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Walking Dead returns!

Something to look forward to at least.

Sleep was pretty good considering my diet yesterday. It helped that I stayed up to make sure I digested before going to bed. I was reading my book, It Starts With Food. I'm having a hard time picturing myself sticking to this way of eating FOR LIFE. Of course 100% isn't realistic. I almost feel like I'm being brainwashed. I used to not eat this way and I was thinner and that annoys me. Mind you, I was running too and counting calories. Is that what I need to do? I need to run.

few bites of leftover mac n cheese.
leftover button mushrooms from Hys + egg whites.
I only ate egg whites because we are out of full eggs and this needed to be used. I originally bought it for the stupid paleo tortillas I failed at last weekend.

Today I need to get groceries and cook up some food for the week. I thought about running as well, we'll see if I follow through or just bitch about my fatness.

Got groceries, loaded up on vegetables.

Quinoa with honey/lemon
buttercup squash

You know why I ate quinoa? Because no matter how fucking paleo I eat, I just keep getting fatter. Something isn't working for me and it's frustrating and mega depressing. I see skinny people eating quinoa, so I'm copying them. Maybe high fat actually MAKES ME FAT? I know it's not supposed to but why is this happening to me? Clothes are tighter, the belly is bigger and ass fatter. I'm not ok with any of this. I don't like running in the winter. But I feel like that's the solution because I've been crossfitting at least 3X/week and I'm not slimming down. What the fuck?!!!!!!

5 small meatballs
tabouleh made with quinoa - there it is again
baba ghanouj (spelling? dunkurr.)

I had several dates throughout the day, also some almonds and rice crackers.

Red wine later.

Saturday, February 9, 2013


It's 50% over. Great.

I'm not even addressing nutrition Friday night or Saturday. I was good at work but snacked in the evening and then had a gluttonous dinner at a steakhouse. We didn't hold back.

Then today, I had a great healthy breakfast but failed during our outing. We went to the sportsman show. I ate a chocolate bar.

Then had some cider and sweet potato fries.

Then proceeded to a wonderful restaurant and had a plank with paté and all sorts of pickled meaty goodness. Then ate some trout and salad.

2 cocktails. Delicous ones, I might add.

chocolate cake and coffee for dessert.

So, I had a chocolate bar for lunch and a huge ass dinner. I'm sitting here on my laptop looking at images of crossfit girls and wanting to got hardcore to be super fit this summer. I need to start now if this is going to happen. Fucking winter.

Friday, February 8, 2013


It's a mega snowstorm outside today. It's been snowing since yesterday afternoon, and it's not stopping anytime soon. My bus was 10 minutes late and a bit slow moving in. But I wasn't super late for work. It's nice watching the snowfall, knowing I have nowhere to go but home from here, and I'll let the TTC do all the driving. If I had to drive I'd be a bit more stressed.

Sleep was almost perfect if I hadn't been woken up by a tingly sleeping hand. Annoying.

1/2 sausage
1/2 avocado

Snack at work:
NUD "chips". Essentially dehydrated crackers made from banana, coconut, cocoa, sesame.

grass fed, nicely raised hamburger from Sense Appeal. Bun and all, sue me!

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Let's go Thursday

It's almost Friday, guys!!

Sleep could have been better. Last night's metcon actually kicked my ass:
4 man-makers
25 kettle bell swings
finished in 10:25

I didn't finish last, which is interesting, and made me feel hardcore. but what helped was during my training workout I used a 25kg (or is it 24?) kettle bell for my 4 min workout. So the 16kg during metcon felt light. It's the man-makers, they're hard. I used 20's and I felt like a million bucks after. A milli. Not to be an ass but I was using heavier weights than the boys. So what, I can brag about it a little bit, no?

My body was exhausted by bed time and it felt like I was heavily melting into the mattress. I almost slept for like 8 or 9 hours but I woke up just as I was falling asleep and it took a while to get back into it. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!? Working on it.

eggplant strata
1/4 avocado

David Beckham is on BT right now. What a handsome fellow.

2 bacon
buttercup squash

Aft Snack:
3/4 honeycrisp apple + cinnamon

It's supposed to snow overnight tonight. I'm mentally and crosfitually preparing for this.

The snow has begun.

Benched 80 3x. It's a PR I think.
Only did half the turkish getups. Meh.
Metcon was aight, not as bad as yesterday. Although my back muscles are still sore from it.

Dinner, brace yourselves, I was hungry:
Leftover chinese curry chicken. Regrettable for the sodium and mystery ingredients.
buttercup squash
1 whole red pepper
home made mayo

frozen berries + organic plain yogurt (probiotics?) + honey
I had this twice, it was really good.

took my magnesium + omegas, and now drinking a Rude-bwoy tea.

Thank the fucking fuckn fuck shit bitch it's Friday tomorrow. I WISH it could be a snow day. It'll be quite the commute, y'all.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Salt Hangover Recovery

K, Salt hangover is gone and I feel ok now. Sleep was alright, maybe 7 hours but I woke up briefly a few times.

3 eggs
1/2 avocado
fried in coconut oil

Eggplant Strata - this piece has a bit of cheese on the top. BIT!
1/4 avo

apple + cinnamon

Pre workout:
handful coconut shreds, bites of chicken. maca nuts. I was starving, sorry.


Workout #2
A. Chin-up practice for quality. I'll practice my thing.
B. Tall box jumps (step down). 4 jumps for quality EMOM for 5mins
C. Tough KB swings (to chin). 20sec, rest 40sec for 4mins
D. Group Metcon:
5 sets for time:
4 man makers
25 KB swings (to chin)

Butcher's sausage - MMMMMMMM
Buttercup squash
Half a red pepper
Home made mayo

Things I need to do today:
Return GAP jeans
Buy clean protein powder to keep at work
Bring cinnamon to work

Whoops I ate almost a full avocado today.


Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Salt Hangover

I feel gross.

small handful cashews/macadamias + coffee

leftover beef fajitas on spinach w/cashew butter/salsa etc.

apple, orange.

I'm still so mad about Chinese food, and I hate that I'm hung up on it. I'm afraid it will affect my performance tonight at the gym. So ridiculous, need to get my priorities straight.

What is it, Michelle? Eat "treats" once a week and fuck up my strength training?

Or eat treats less than once a week and do better/feel better? Annoying.

The answer is so obvious but not easy for this inner fatty.

The rest of the week is clean eating FOSHE. I'll let you know how the fat test goes and how depressed I am on a scale of 1 to 10 later on. 10 being mega depressed.

Dinner tonight:
Eggplant strata.

Bed at 9:30.

I set some personal records tonight!

100 lb push press
130 lb front squat

Quite happy with this. It sort of erases the bad feelings about my 1.7% body fat increase. I'm working on getting better quality/ more sleep so hopefully that combined with good clean eating will shed that extra fat and more.

I'm considering doing the sporting life 10k again..but I'm a little worried that its all downhill. My knees aren't good with hills no mo. Perhaps I'll just add some running into my training regime, work on increasing my kms on my own without hills, and even try doing non hot yoga with Reen.

Today was a 100% success in terms of nutrition. Lets keep it up, self.

Monday, February 4, 2013

A New Week

Sleep was average, not great.

Last night I ate more popchips. Running. Seriously... starvation mode afterwards.

3 bacon 2 eggs. I didn't plan on eating bacon again, but Jamie made it. No more this week.


eggplant strata w/1/4 avo
kale chips

banada + pumk seed butter. its gone now, good riddance!

I made a poor choice tonight.

Jamie planted the seed that we could go to Peking Man for dinner. This is our favourite, RARE OCCASION Chinese restaurant. It's up in North York so we never go. We haven't been in a few years I'd say. So I thought I'd rush home, go to CF early and we could go after. I showed up at 6:30 and it was completely rammed, I could have waited til 7 for the official 'class' to start but I was motivated by the thought of eating at PM so I left and we went there for dinner. Was it delicious? Absolutely. Was it necessary...? no. Did I eat too much 'bad' food? Yes. And I paid by having a sore stomach all night and this morning (it's Tuesday now) I feel like a salty bloat fish.

What have I learned from this? Don't bail on Crossfit when I'm already there - ESPECIALLY if bailing means going to eat food that will make me less healthy. Also, I've learned that Peking Man is delicious, but it hurts my stomach now. Great.


Sunday, February 3, 2013


Sleep was good, a few tosses and turns. But overall good.

2 eggs, 3 bacon, several coffees.

I wanted to bail on my friends for the run we had planned. But I sucked it up and went, hated it up until I got going. Bailing isn't nice, anyway.

In the end, it felt great. We did about 4.5km, and I knew I wouldn't regret it. The hard part is getting out there. Once you get passed that, it's all good and endorphins take over. Easier said than done, I know. But when you have friends to be with, it changes things and time just flies. The only problem I have with running is that it makes me hungry, like ALL DAY. Unless I fill up on carbs after, I'm constantly craving them.

After run I prepared dinner, eggplant strata from Well Fed. Essentially an eggplant lasagna type thing: layers of eggplant, beef, tomato sauce. Turned out great. While cooking I had:

1 banana + yogurt (yes, plain, organic yogurt) with some seeds/dried berries of some sort and honey + cinnamon/nutmeg too. Really, I wanna make the banana pudding from my cookbook. It's paleo! but My bananas aren't ripe enough. Need me some black ones and I'm totally making it. I'm craving bananas right now because of the run.

1 small pepperette.

Had a nice soak in the tub and ate some popchips. (still hungry)

Finished cooking up the eggplant strata (it's a process) and had 1 small can of tuna + 1 small tomato


apple w/tahini + cinnamon

Hopefully that kills my carb craving.

There is lots of strata left, will have that for lunch and maybe dinner. Not slacking this week, fuckit.

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Freakin Weekin

I am glad right now for reasons:

  1. I slept like a good 10 hours. THANK THE LAWWWWD! It felt amazing.
  2. Went to crossfit again today, yes! made it 3X this week despite the minor hiccups.
  3. I've already gone grocery shopping, got a nice haul for the week and I plan on sticking to great nutrition all throughout.
  4. I had a chat with a gym coach today about food, I'm no longer using the word "cheat" because it's dumb. Sometimes you eat bad things, and when you do, either get over it or don't do it in the first place. You can have the strength to avoid, or eat and deal with the guilt (if you have it).
  5. Since most chores are done, I can veg the fuck out all day and night, and I can't wait.
  6. Making fajitas tonight with 2 attempts: home made coconut flour tortillas and home made 'cashew sour cream'. Just wanna give it a whirl. (contradictory cheddar cheese will be on the fajitas, but whatever, I like to experiment. Also I bought some fancy organic yogurt in case the cashew sour cream fails.)
So, it's cold out, my house is warm, groceries are done and I have the afternoon to chill. Happy Caturday to all.

Work up at 10am. Went to bed at like 11. Suck it!

A. Bench Press 2×3@85%, 1×3+ @ 85%, rest 2.5mins (80#, managed to hit 5 reps for my max)
B. Speed DL 8×2@60% every minute on the minute (110#, nbd)
3 sets, rest as needed:
C1. Rope Climb (arms only if possible) 1-3 reps. (can't do ropes, did my variation)
C2. GHD sit-ups 10-15 reps  / LOVE
C3. Front Step-up 10-15/side / My left knee is crunchy and weak, so I don't enjoy these

After workout:
3 little peperettes

GROCERY TIME. Mother load complete.

Late brunch:
2 eggs, spinach, 1/2 avocado, salsa. Love this breakfast.

Gonna take a hot-ass bath and hit the couch for a bit.

Beef fajitas for dinner - no tortillas.

Thursday, January 31, 2013


Almost weekend. GO GO GO.

Sleep was not great, I should have gone to bed earlier. Also that tea before bed made me have to pee in the night. Je n'aime pas.

I wish I could go to the gym tonight, but I need to go and socialize with work. The bausses are in town and taking us all out. It would be rude and non-participanty not to. I'll go Friday night like a loner instead.

And Saturday to make sure I get in 3X.

2 eggs omelette w/red pepper and goat cheese.

chilli, spinach

banana/pumpk butter

Went to pub with work, looking back, I should have gone home and gone to the gym. Noted for future. Not because I didn't enjoy myself but because I drank wine and ate unhealthy pub crap. Tastey, but not good for me. Huge fail, and on top of that, I had THE WORST SLEEP. I fell asleep at like 11 only to wake up at (what I thought was like 4am) then I finally looked at the clock after tossing and turning for at least an hour and it was 2:48am. This is a good thing and a bad thing for insomniacs. Good because it seems like you have an opportunity to get a good ish night's sleep, bad because if you can't get back to sleep you're lying there for like 5 more hours. This time, it was bad. I didn't fall back asleep til after 5am and my alarm went off at 6:15. Cool. I read a bit when I realized it was only 2, but it didn't help.

I drank 3 9oz glasses of pinot which I made into spritzers. The alcohol effected my sleep, also the food. Oh, when I got home I ate popcorn.

I didn't stuff myself or anything at the pub, but I ate bits of fried garbage. Not cool. Today, I am going to be perfect and force myself to the gym tonight despite my fatigue.

This weekend will be a mega chill weekend. Perhaps I'll start a new crochet project.

2 hard boiled eggs, almonds

At work:

Sushi like last week. This is the last time.
Wakame salad
1x4" pancake with butter. It was good. I love plain pancakes with just butter.

some broccoli stir fry from the other night. One of the bites tasted nasty.
Then.. 1 timbit. ouch.

Crossfit, hit 125# for front squats. But I was starting to feel that shit sleep from last night. Slowed me down. I decided to try out the "Iqbal" place in the plaza. Got Butter chicken + rice for dinner, from someone's reco. It came to 14 bucks and it was a rip off. Hardly any chicken, mostly buttery sauce. I like my indian food with more zing, that was very tame. I wouldn't get it again, perhaps some beef another time. I didn't eat the whole thing, I went easy on the sauce but ate all the chicken bits. The rice was really good. I've gone buck wild with rice today, clearly. Today and yesterday have been a write off. Well, Tomorrow is a new day, the challenge begins. Right MA?? Def going to gym in the morns.

Coronation Street and maybe a movie. Jamie is out tonight, I'm a bachelorette.